Why do you feel that the Marriage standards don't apply to you? Two Consenting adults of opposite sex, proper age and not related closely? Because you know that these standards are true and right you wish to re write the standards to fit your own lusts. That doesn't make your lust good or right in Gods eyes. You wish to change the standards to fit your desires so you will feel better about your behavior. Your self esteem will be good again. But deep in side you will know what all Gay people know to be true. That homosexuality is a sin and wrong to God. You can delude yourself and those around you into this belief but not God. God is clear on this.