Every one is free to believe what they will -- wherever they may be. That you choose not to believe only confirms that you are among those who will suffer from the consequences of your sin. You have admitted that you had your growing baby aborted because you were "strong enough" to make such as decision. To you, you did nothing wrong because you choose what is right. Your only hope is that you will be changed by a power that is not your own. That is my prayer for you.