Along with all of those bad examples of 'christians' out there, there are also many examples of people who are trying to live their lives looking to Christ as their inspiration. If you're going to judge the Church, do so by looking at those who live according to Church teaching, not those who call themselves 'Christian' but then don't actually follow Christ's example. Jesus said "People will know you are my followers by how you love one another". Look to them and judge accordingly. May I suggest you start with a book on the lives of the saints, they're definately good examples. God bless you.