Dennis, As a Soldier, returned to civilian life with no transition period, I was very suicidal. Life was not the same and I had no guidance.
I could not impose my will anymore. I had to fend for myself under different rules. I was a screwed up screw. But,,, Moral, Christian upbringing; seeing my parents( divorced before I was born) struggle to do the right thing, did not prevent me from threatening or dreaming about it.
As you can read, I haven't yet. IT IS the coward's way. Unless you're about to be overrun, and subject to capture. js